Dear Emily,
Let’s cut the chitchat. It’s just you and me, kid, and I’m not going to beat around the bush here. You are a good person. You are a worthy person. Your worst enemy is that voice in your head that’s whispering, “You’re just second-best. A consolation prize. Plan B.” It’s all lies.
Because you are YOU. It wasn’t just chance. You were created. Designed. You are unique, and most importantly, you are loved. And it is a pure love that no human can ever take away.
And I know you feel lost, and lonely, and homeless, but you’re not. Your family is diverse and scattered throughout the world, but they are there for you. They care. They remember.
Your past, your scars, your fears—they made you. In some ways, they will forever define you. But they don’t limit you. Accept them, embrace them, and let go. Move on.
I know that you have no idea what to do with your life. I know that you’re upset at how life hasn’t gone according to plan. And it sucks. I can’t lie to you. I can’t say any clichés to make you feel better. I’m not offering you rose-colored glasses because I love you too much for that.
But I have something that I think you need and that I know you desire: I have hope. And what’s more, I have faith. I have faith in you, and I have faith in the one that sustains you.
So do something! Go to Europe, Chile, L.A., Korea…heck, go to Canada even! Make plans and act on them. Make friends and stick with them. Don’t shy away from having a little fun in your life. You thought life started after high school and then were disappointed to find yourself stagnate in college. Life starts when you want it to.
Life is crap. People suck. Dreams crash and burn before they even take off. But you keep going. You keep trudging on, and one day you’ll be able to turn around, look back, and smile. It will be a bittersweet smile, and there will be storm clouds ahead, but you’ll be able to smile if you keep holding on.
I don’t know how much more I can say about this. To quote one of your favorite movies, “Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating.” I’ve said what I’ve needed to say. Now it’s up to you to let it sink in. Maybe this is the first step of many.
Make me proud.
Simply,
Emily