...however, i consider my life worth nothing to me, if only i may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me-the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace... [acts 20:24]

Saturday, April 14, 2007

lust for life

Random whiny thoughts on everyone's favorite topic: love.

TV shows. Movies. Books. French class. Ecclesiastes/Song of Songs class. Chapel. Church. Spring Fling. My mother.

It seems like no matter where I go I am bombarded with this world view that happy, socially well-adjusted people should be in some sort of relationship.

[I swear, if I have to listen to one more guest speaker in chapel talk about how he/she found his/her spouse on his/her second day of freshman year, I am going to storm out of the chapel and puke in the Ladies' room.]

When I was a kid, I thought there was a formula to life. You were born, you went to primary and secondary school, went to college, got a job, got married, and had 2.5 children. That was the recipe for the normal life.

But that was when I was a kid. I still held on to that hope as I got older, but more in the same way that people set aside cookies and milk on Christmas Eve--we don't believe in Santa Clause because we are much to rational than that, but if there is the slightest chance that he might exist, we want in on the action.

I know now that life does not, as one friend put it so eloquently, follow Plan A. However, Plan B can be nice. She was talking about her relationship with her bf, but the same could be said about just life in general.

I am single.

And I'm okay with being single. I mean, it's not always the greatest gig in the world, especially when you are surrounded by hormone raging college students who are pairing up with everyone but you, but I'm not miserable. I am not. I am quite content with my situation.

Still, I would not be opposed to negotiation about my facebook status.

There's a line from Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice that I've been thinking about lately:
"A girl likes to get crossed in love. It gives her something to think about."

My life's been nothing but school and seriousness. I wouldn't mind some light-hearted distraction.

But life goes on, and at the moment I am content.

So to all those concerned with my lack of middle school drama in life, it's quite alright. And to those who think it would be a good idea to set me up with that random single guy friend you might have...for the love of God and all that is holy, DON'T! I hate blind dates. I'd rather pay a visit to e-harmony...and I loathe internet dating sites.

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