Wow. This past weekend has been amazing! I spent Friday night and all day Saturday at Collision. Collision was a leadership conference led by students from my university, and it was wonderful. Mind-blowing. Overwhelming. Life-changing. Convicting.
It was incredible, to say the least.
I was so challenged this week. I've taken leadership courses before and I know that I can be a leader when I have to be, but I was convicted just on my personal attitude lately. This past week has been so hard for me. I've had so many things to do, so many responsibilities, and I've run from all of them. I have been so depressed and just plain scared of the things that I have to do. I've been running from choices that I know I have to make just to continue on with my life and I've been a complete baby hiding in the corner.
I'm going to turn 21 in 2 months, 2 days, and 8 hours. That's scary. I feel like I haven't quite finished my adolescence and here I'm going to have my last "fun" birthday, as my roommate would say. Once I'm 21, it's official: I am an adult. But I don't feel like one at all. I feel like I'm 12.
Collision, though, really convicted me about realizing that no matter how hard I try to run from it, I'm going to have to "grow up" eventually. The longer I put it off, the harder its going to be.
And this isn't just talk. Today, I actually got a lot of the things that were freaking me out done. I feel very happy now. :)
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Just wanted to add, Noble (from MSU's Chi Alpha group) spoke on dreaming. Amazing! And I don't mean "dreaming" as in indigestion and REM, but dreaming as in "Woah, what would life be like if I was--oh, I don't know, the first female president of the United States." (That's not my dream. I mean it be cool for a day or two, but ugh, 4 years? at least? no, thank you.) It was so cool to think that God gives us dreams that pertain to our uniqueness and personalities, and then He guides us through the ones He has ordained and creates visions for us to follow through with. And with God on our side, how can we fail?
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